Week 22: Bigger & Bigger
Mood:  spacey
I'm so huge. I think too big for 22 weeks. I've gained 20 pounds so far! Went to the doctor yesterday and she said my blood sugar is high. I have to take yet another blood test to confirm that I have diabetes. I may have to take medication. But she says the baby is doing good so far, thank God. Also I may have to do a c-section because of the surgeries I've had on my uterus. We heard his heart beat and it was good. He's moving more and more everyday, getting stronger. Although hubby can't seem to feel him yet. I told him by the end of this month he'll be able to feel him move. We chose the name Noah Roman for him. I can feel him moving now. He usually moves in the morning, late afternoon, evening and then again around midnight. That's he's usual pattern. God, I can't wait to see my baby! Time is not moving fast enough.

Week 20: It's a boy!!!
Mood:  celebratory
They had left a message on my answering machine a few days ago that the doctor was cancelling all her appointments for today. I was so pissed because I was looking foward to the ultrasound to see the gender of our baby. I had been excited for weeks. I told my hubby we would have to reschedule. Then he reminded me the ultrasound is not with this doctor, it's in another department. I was so happy again! I'll get to see my baby after all. So we went this morning and the person doing the ultrasound was about to have her baby any minute! She was huge and she said she was having a boy. She measured every inch of our baby, his leg bones, arm bones, brain, heart, abdomen, etc.. It took about 30 minutes! I thought she would never finish and she was rubbing my stomach so hard. I was scared the baby would feel as uncomfortable as I was! He was tumbling and turning all over. Finally she tried to see the gender and couldn't see a thing. Again I was disappointed. She said she would get a doctor to look. The doctor came and he tried to look and said it was very difficult to see. Then he said, " Well I'm 95% sure it's a boy". I was so thrilled! But 95%? He tried to show us the baby's penis but all I saw was a little white dot! Hardly a penis. But he's the experienced one, right? Who would know better than the doctor. I hope so. Hubby was all smiles and started calling the baby "junior". But I guess we'll be 100% sure next month. I'm just happy everything is going well and the baby is growing. Now I have to look up boy names!!!

Hormones & Holidays
Mood:  down
It must be the hormones & holidays that are effecting me. I have been crying and so moody lately. It's been really weird, I have never experienced anything like it before. I used to think the moodiness and crying at the drop of a hat was a myth about pregnancy, now I know it isin't. I'm watching "Moonstruck" on tv. I know I'll end up crying.

Week 18
Mood:  a-ok
We're back from Florida. The airplane flights turned out ok. I slept, read a book, watched a movie on my laptop, listened to my CD's, so I was ok thank God. We looked at some apartments and found one that we liked. So if everything goes well we'll be moving in January. While in Florida, my hubby noticed that my stomach grew bigger. I defintely look pregnant now. This week the baby's bones are getting harder, it's starting to hear things from inside the uterus (like my heartbeat) as well as things from outside, and the legs are getting longer. Storknet is a good site to read about your pregnancy week by week.

Claustrophobia
Mood:  don't ask
We're headed to Florida for 6 days. A mini vacation. Sort of. I wish it was longer but that's how long hubby could take off work. While we're down there we're going to look into some hospitals and apartments. We're still not sure if we should have the baby here or move around January. We like the hospital where we're going now but I wanted to have the baby in Florida. I'm thinking it'll be easier to move and have the baby there instead of moving from here with a newborn and all the stuff we have to do. Well, we'll see what happens.
Ok now I'm going to confess about a problem that I have. Claustrophobia. It's a fear of being in small or enclosed places. So this means elevators, small rooms, trains, buses and planes. So flying to and from Florida will be very hard for me. It takes 3 hours from here to there which isin't too bad for most people, but for me it's pure torture and not fast enough. What I usually do when I have to travel for that amount of time is take a sleeping pill to calm me down, but now that I'm pregnant I can't take it. It's really serious, I start sweating, my heart starts beating faster and I feel as if I'm not getting enough air and I feel as If I'll faint. Hubby doesn't understand what I go through and he thinks I can just get rid of this problem by not thinking about it and BAM! problem gone. If only it were that easy! I take books to read, my CD player, my laptop, anything to keep me busy but the phobia can hit anytime. For example if a kid starts crying or if we have turbulance, if people keep constantly walking up and down the aisle, or talking loudly, all these things can trigger the phobia. I try to breathe deeply and calm myself down, and I do but just barely. The only way I have ever been able to relax was with a sleeping pill. What will I do now??? I was even thinking a glass of red wine might help but I don't want to take alcohol either. I need help, I know. Well, please pray for me. And if anyone has any suggestions or advice please let me know!