Week 25: Big Scare #2
Mood:  chillin'
I'm so used to my little bugaboo kicking me everyday in his usual pattern (every 4-5 hours) that when I didn't feel him at all today, I panicked. I really started to feel uncomfortable about it around midnight. He ALWAYS kicks around midnight. Then morning and afternoon came and went and still NOTHING. I kept telling hubby I was worried. He said it was probably nothing, that he was sleeping in there. Finally I couldn't take it anymore, not knowing if my baby was ok or not. Hubby took me to the neighborhood clinic because our hospital is kind of a distance away and we knew the doctor there. So I had an ultrasound done and there he was with his beautiful little heart beating and moving very softly that I could hardly feel him! I thanked God he was ok and I went home so happy and relieved. At the clinic they told me when you have pain or spotting or bleeding that's usually a sign when something is wrong. And that babies sometimes don't move as much as they usually do, like if they're sleeping all day. I felt a little foolish but at the same time I'm glad I checked because you never know. So this was my second biggest scare in my pregnancy. The first one was bleeding early in my pregnancy (turned out to be nothing serious) which I wrote about somewhere in this blog.
In other good news...the inlaws from hell are leaving for good tomorrow! I couldn't be happier if I'd win the lottery. It has been a nightmare with his parents in my home, especially his mother. I didn't know my husband was a mama's boy. It was pretty disgusting to see. I feel as if my New Year hasn't started yet. Really. But it will begin as soon as they leave. We have so many things to do: clean the house, pack everything for our move, buy some things, get ready for baby's arrival, get our papers in order, etc...I just hope his parents won't visit again. And I'm thankful that the baby wasn't here yet because his mother would've been more unbearable!

Week 23: Merry Christmas !!!!
Mood:  a-ok
If anyone would have told me that 2004 would be the year I'd get pregnant I wouldn't have believed them. I was sure I would have gotten pregnant sooner than that. I didn't know I had physical problems preventing me from getting pregnant. I mean, in the back of my mind I knew something was wrong, but I was in denial. I had avoided the doctor for so long bcause I was scared to hear the words, "You can never get pregnant." But finally, I was lead in the right direction after finding about infertility specialists. Thank God. And not only did we try once or twice, but three times until it happened. We didn't want to give up, even though it cost us an arm and a leg. We feel so blessed this year, despite all our other problems. We are so happy and excited that our little one is on his way in April 2005.
I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas & a fertile New Year! For all those couples out there trying, never give up and always, always, pray because God hears your prayers.

Week 22: Bigger & Bigger
Mood:  spacey
I'm so huge. I think too big for 22 weeks. I've gained 20 pounds so far! Went to the doctor yesterday and she said my blood sugar is high. I have to take yet another blood test to confirm that I have diabetes. I may have to take medication. But she says the baby is doing good so far, thank God. Also I may have to do a c-section because of the surgeries I've had on my uterus. We heard his heart beat and it was good. He's moving more and more everyday, getting stronger. Although hubby can't seem to feel him yet. I told him by the end of this month he'll be able to feel him move. We chose the name Noah Roman for him. I can feel him moving now. He usually moves in the morning, late afternoon, evening and then again around midnight. That's he's usual pattern. God, I can't wait to see my baby! Time is not moving fast enough.

Week 20: It's a boy!!!
Mood:  celebratory
They had left a message on my answering machine a few days ago that the doctor was cancelling all her appointments for today. I was so pissed because I was looking foward to the ultrasound to see the gender of our baby. I had been excited for weeks. I told my hubby we would have to reschedule. Then he reminded me the ultrasound is not with this doctor, it's in another department. I was so happy again! I'll get to see my baby after all. So we went this morning and the person doing the ultrasound was about to have her baby any minute! She was huge and she said she was having a boy. She measured every inch of our baby, his leg bones, arm bones, brain, heart, abdomen, etc.. It took about 30 minutes! I thought she would never finish and she was rubbing my stomach so hard. I was scared the baby would feel as uncomfortable as I was! He was tumbling and turning all over. Finally she tried to see the gender and couldn't see a thing. Again I was disappointed. She said she would get a doctor to look. The doctor came and he tried to look and said it was very difficult to see. Then he said, " Well I'm 95% sure it's a boy". I was so thrilled! But 95%? He tried to show us the baby's penis but all I saw was a little white dot! Hardly a penis. But he's the experienced one, right? Who would know better than the doctor. I hope so. Hubby was all smiles and started calling the baby "junior". But I guess we'll be 100% sure next month. I'm just happy everything is going well and the baby is growing. Now I have to look up boy names!!!

Hormones & Holidays
Mood:  down
It must be the hormones & holidays that are effecting me. I have been crying and so moody lately. It's been really weird, I have never experienced anything like it before. I used to think the moodiness and crying at the drop of a hat was a myth about pregnancy, now I know it isin't. I'm watching "Moonstruck" on tv. I know I'll end up crying.