Hormones & Holidays
Mood:  down
It must be the hormones & holidays that are effecting me. I have been crying and so moody lately. It's been really weird, I have never experienced anything like it before. I used to think the moodiness and crying at the drop of a hat was a myth about pregnancy, now I know it isin't. I'm watching "Moonstruck" on tv. I know I'll end up crying.

Week 18
Mood:  a-ok
We're back from Florida. The airplane flights turned out ok. I slept, read a book, watched a movie on my laptop, listened to my CD's, so I was ok thank God. We looked at some apartments and found one that we liked. So if everything goes well we'll be moving in January. While in Florida, my hubby noticed that my stomach grew bigger. I defintely look pregnant now. This week the baby's bones are getting harder, it's starting to hear things from inside the uterus (like my heartbeat) as well as things from outside, and the legs are getting longer. Storknet is a good site to read about your pregnancy week by week.

Claustrophobia
Mood:  don't ask
We're headed to Florida for 6 days. A mini vacation. Sort of. I wish it was longer but that's how long hubby could take off work. While we're down there we're going to look into some hospitals and apartments. We're still not sure if we should have the baby here or move around January. We like the hospital where we're going now but I wanted to have the baby in Florida. I'm thinking it'll be easier to move and have the baby there instead of moving from here with a newborn and all the stuff we have to do. Well, we'll see what happens.
Ok now I'm going to confess about a problem that I have. Claustrophobia. It's a fear of being in small or enclosed places. So this means elevators, small rooms, trains, buses and planes. So flying to and from Florida will be very hard for me. It takes 3 hours from here to there which isin't too bad for most people, but for me it's pure torture and not fast enough. What I usually do when I have to travel for that amount of time is take a sleeping pill to calm me down, but now that I'm pregnant I can't take it. It's really serious, I start sweating, my heart starts beating faster and I feel as if I'm not getting enough air and I feel as If I'll faint. Hubby doesn't understand what I go through and he thinks I can just get rid of this problem by not thinking about it and BAM! problem gone. If only it were that easy! I take books to read, my CD player, my laptop, anything to keep me busy but the phobia can hit anytime. For example if a kid starts crying or if we have turbulance, if people keep constantly walking up and down the aisle, or talking loudly, all these things can trigger the phobia. I try to breathe deeply and calm myself down, and I do but just barely. The only way I have ever been able to relax was with a sleeping pill. What will I do now??? I was even thinking a glass of red wine might help but I don't want to take alcohol either. I need help, I know. Well, please pray for me. And if anyone has any suggestions or advice please let me know!

Week 16: 4 Months!
Mood:  lazy
I made 4 months yesterday. Can you believe it? The baby is developing more and more. This month several milestones occur: the eyelids are completely formed and closed over eyes that can react to changes in light. The nose, lips, and chin are distinct and the entire body is covered with lanugo (downy hair). The external genitalia become distinctly female or male. I haven't been able to find out yet if it's a boy or a girl. I have to wait until November 30th. I'm just dying to know. I want to pick a name and start buying baby clothes!
I'm feeling very unattractive. I'm gaining weight (I know it's to be expected with pregnancy but I've struggled with my weight all my life) my hair has no style and it's so thin, and my skin is so dry no matter how much I moisturize! Is it just me or has anybody else felt unattractive during pregnancy?

Week 15: Happy Again
Mood:  happy
I'm so happy. Good news. The inlaws have left!!! They went to Florida to visit other relatives for 2 months. YESSS!!! Bad news is that they'll be back here for 2 weeks after that, then they will go back to their country for good. So I got my privacy back, my kitchen, my husband, my happiness, my sanity, basically I got my life back. Yes, to me it was that bad. I wouldn't have minded their visit so much if they hadn't overstayed their welcome. One or two months is enough! So I'm going to enjoy this delicious time before they come back.
The doctor left a message saying I should get the flu shot. I don't know how it's going anywhere else in the country, but here in NYC there is a shortage of the flu vaccine and everyone is getting crazy. I never cared for these shots that they give at this time of year cuz I hardly get sick. But since the doctor said I should take it because I'm pregnant and high risk (because of high blood pressure) I said ok, why not. Well we went to the hospital only to find out they didn't have any vaccine left. We were pissed because nobody bothered to call us to let us know. So the doctor apologised a million times and said they will be getting more in a couple of weeks and that we'll be the first on the list. Yeah right. Hopefully I won't get sick this winter. And hopefully we'll move to Florida by January. I'm getting bigger every day. I can't wait to see the baby with the ultrasound again and see how much bigger he or she has gotten. I can't wait to find out what it is! Our next appointment will be November 2nd so I'll have to wait until then.