Vaccines
Mood:  sad
Topic: Checkups
Today Noah got his second month vaccinations. He was doing ok for his checkup, even smiling at the doctor a little. Then the shots came. He looked shocked, turned red, opened his mouth and let out a huge cry. I felt so bad for him, especially when he puts his little bottom lip in a pout and it quivers. Hubby doesn't even stay and watch, he walks out the room and comes back when it's over and then takes the baby to comfort him. The doctor prescribed tylenol drops for the pain and if he gets a fever. Well, he fell asleep for now, but a while ago he was in pain and crying. I know it's necessary to get the shots, but it breaks my heart to see him in pain. We were going to go to the park for a while like the other day but decided not to because Noah was so uncomfortable. Hopefully by tomorrow he'll be ok (until the next set of shots).

Baby Noah
Mood:  amorous
Topic: Pictures

Noah is 2 months old!
Mood:  hug me
Topic: Birthdays
Noah turned 2 months yesterday. He's getting a little better with his digestive problems. We'll see the doctor on the 7th and see what she says about it. I wish he would sleep longer than 1-3 hrs. I really really really need some sleep. I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and I look like one of those haggard frumpy houswives from a comic book. I look so ugly! But I have no time for myself right now. I want to exercise on my treadmill to get back in shape and I can't because of no time right now. I have to rush with my eating and what little time I have when he takes a nap to go on the internet. But when he turns 3 months I hope that's when he's sleeping longer. Other than those complaints, he's getting cuter everyday. He's gained some weight so his legs are cute and chubby now and so is his face as you can see in the pictures. I love his big brown eyes, I get lost just staring into them and he stares right back without blinking! He started smiling at us and he's trying to talk to us but no words yet, just alot of cooing, which is adorable. I can't wait until he starts talking! He's taking a nap now so I'm relaxing a little now. I hope he naps for more than 30 min!

Enjoying my baby
Mood:  cool
Topic: Pictures
Last time I wrote I was going nuts. I told hubby he has to spend more time at home to help with the baby. It gets too much sometimes by myself. Well, hubby agreed to help out. Let's see how long that lasts. The baby is almost 2 months old. He is growing so fast right before our eyes. I'm taking lots of pictures and video of him. In the meantime these are the things I'm enjoying of my baby right now: the way his face looks when he's falling asleep, when he smiles in his sleep, the little cooing noises he makes when he's relaxing, his soft chubby cheek that I kiss often (I could just eat him up!), the way he looks at me or his daddy when we're feeding him, the way he smells after a bath, the way his little butt sticks up when he's sleeping, the curious way he looks around at everything.
I know as he grows there will be so many other things to enjoy about him. These first few months have been hard but I know you can never get back this time when the baby is so small and he falls asleep in your arms or on your chest. Those are the sweet moments you should cherish.

Losing it!!!!!
Mood:  don't ask
I'm losing it. Noah is driving me nuts. The honeymoon period is over. I think he's colicky. He's crying and fussing all the time because of the gas problem, but the doctor swears it's normal and that it will pass. I'm seriously thinking of switching formula again. I cut down on pumping my breastmilk because it's too much for me. Everytime I had to pump, Noah would cry and I would have to take care of him. So now my breastmilk is not much (1 or 2 ounces per day) so I'm going to stop it. I haven't slept at all, and I'm grumpy and feel and look like shit. No time for me at all! I know it's part of being a new mom but right now I'm not liking it. Hubby could do a little more in helping out, like not running out to play chess as soon as he gets home. He needs to stay home and help out with the baby. He thinks because I'm home that I'm not tired and that I don't do anything? He needs to stay home with the baby (and I'll go to work) to see how hard it is. I need to get away for a while, just me, and come back refreshed. But that's not going to happen, right? Well I have to find other ways to cope. Gotta go, the kid is crying again......ahhhhhh!!!!!!!

Noah's 2nd appointment
Mood:  lazy
Today was Noah's second doctor's visit. He's now 8lbs and 4 oz! I knew he gained weight because my arm gets tired when I'm feeding him. He also got his first vaccination! He got the hepititis B shot. He cried and I felt so bad for him. Hubby left the room because he didn't want to see it. He's worse than me! Last night was a terrible night for us. Noah was in pain with gas problems. He was crying so much and straining to get the gas out but no use. We told the doctor and again she said it's normal as long as his stool is looking normal. She said all babies go through this during the first few months, because of their developing digestive system. She gave us a prescription for his oral thrush so hopefully that will clear up. I sterilized all his bottles and nipples. I'm so sleepy and tired but just can't seem to take a nap during the day. I always end up on the computer or watching tv, reading a book, or cleaning. Hubby just abandoned us to play chess in the park. But I let him slide because he does his share with Noah. He goes to work, he pays the bills, he always comforts Noah when he cries, he feeds him, he buys him whatever he needs. He's a good father. I can't complain. The only thing I wish for is to move to Florida. Hopefully that will happen one day.

Noah is 1 month today!!!
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: Birthdays
My baby is 1 month today! I can't believe how fast that went. He's getting bigger and cuter each day. He's still sleeping through the day and at night he's being fussy beacuse of gas problems. We see the doctor on Tuesday so we're going to ask about that and also he's got a little bit of oral thrush. I suspect he got it through my breast milk while I was taking antibiotics. It was worse but it cleared up alot on it's own. I think Noah is 8 lbs and couple of ounces. He's getting heavy! I have to start practicing using the carrier that we bought. In the meantime, still no sleep for me. I'm also trying to get back to my lowcarb diet and exercise plan. Summer is almost here and I know I won't fit into a bikini this year but at least get down to where I was before I got pregnant. I want to feel good again! And look good!

Daddy's Boy
Mood:  cool
The baby is looking more and more like his father everyday! He has only 2 things from me, my straight brown hair and my nose. From his father: his eyes, hair line, head shape, chin, neck, cheeks. The ears we can't tell yet. we think he'll have his father's slim build but he'll be much taller. His fingers and toes are so long, and his legs so skinny! On hubby's side of the family they have some very tall people: his uncles, cousins and his grandfather (whom hubby got his nose from) is VERY tall (6 ft +?). Hubby is very proud of his boy. He can't wait to teach him chess!

Walking Zombie
Mood:  a-ok
Noah is now 24 days old. He sleeps during the day alot and during the night he wakes up for milk every 2 hours. Everyone is telling me this will last until he's 3 months old, then he'll sleep longer during the night. Hubby helps sometimes during the night but most of the time it's me getting up to feed the baby. I understand hubby is so tired because he has to get up at 4:40 a.m. to get ready for work. It's been hard but I think we're adjusting ok. I try to do the most that I can (like cleaning, laundry, dishes, showering) when the baby is sleeping. I have to say I hate pumping my breastmilk every few hours. I want to give it up, but hubby is telling me to hang in there for a couple of more months. I know it's good for the baby and that's why I'm doing my best, but it's not easy. I keep telling hubby he'll be a woman in the next life so that he can see how it feels to go through all this!

Doctor's appointment
Mood:  a-ok
Noah is healthy. Thank God. He's now 7 pounds and 20 inches long. We asked the doctor about his gas problems and she said it was perfectly normal. She said we shouldn't switch formulas without consulting a doctor first. She said to go back to the Enfamil with Lipil, that the Alimentum is for babys that are colicky. Well we did go back to the Enfamil and again he seems to be having more gas than usual. My sister says maybe it because I'm giving breast milk and formula. She said stick to one. Well, I would love to but sometimes I don't make enough breast milk, that's why I have the formula too. I just hope this is just temporary and that his digestive system gets normal. Well, I feel better knowing that he is gaining weight and he's looking healthy.